I didn’t always have a Rich experience of Life
I wanted a rich life
Make myself and my life better
I thought I could find the formula
Discipline and Habit
I didn’t always have a Rich experience of Life
I thought I needed to become my best self, so I started a project of life enrichment. I worked toward a better life, career, and relationships using discipline and habit.
Experimenting with anything and everything from the world of self help, I started with the basics: eating right and exercising.
I went on to fill notebooks with affirmations, meditate multiple times a day, and shove myself into cold showers. As if that wasn't enough, I added quigong, breathwork, positive playlists, EMDR, mantras, journaling, parts work, visualization, and yoga.
I fought for my rich life,
but the more I tried to control, the more I reeled from life’s punches.
I felt like i had to fight:
with my emotions
to improve myself
to feel okay
with my insecure thoughts
in my relationship
I fought for my rich life
The fight to take control of my life felt like boxing in a ring. I read that the mind makes a wonderful servant, so I battled to become its master.
Yet the more I wrestled to control my mind, my emotions, and my relatioship, the more I got knocked down. I was determeined. Each time I went down for the count, I got back up and jumped right back into the fray. I used every habit and technique I could find to create the formula for self mastery.
It seemed like I was starting to win. I could craft my rich life afterall.
All that effort
took me further away
from my authentic self
More and more of my day working on myself
Optimizing myself away from my own life
Building anxiety
Less presence
All that effort took me further away from my authentic self
I spent years on this self improvement project. In fact, I became addicted to the daily act of working on myself. I didn't have much of a life anymore.
It took more and more effort and techniques to get the same results. I began to feel fried. My wife told me I wasn't around enough. I worked so hard to improve my life that there wasn't much of a life left to live. I ignored the early warning signs of burnout as my anxiety started to build.
One Saturday morning, I woke up at 5AM to start my morning routine. Exhausted and spent, I cried and asked. "What am I doing to myself?”
losing the fight
Rock bottom
Extreme Anxiety
Lost and afraid
Constant worry
Pacing at 2AM
losing the fight
In the fight to master myself, I started to lose control of my emotions and relationships. Fear and anxiety took over my mind. I gripped tighter to control. I drove my self into the ground, white knuckling the steering wheel all the way down. I hit rock bottom. Acid reflux burned constantly from a never settled stomach.
It didn't make any sense. I was suppsed to improve, not get worse. Pacing at 2 in the morning was a nightly occurrence. In and out of doctors offices and emergency rooms, I was almost admitted to a mental institution twice. I couldn't work. I struggled to even function, much less be my best self.
3 Principles Understanding
Inside out nature of experience
Mind, consciousness, and thought
3 Principles Understanding
Even with the help of extreme anxiety medications, it took me months to recover. Slowly, I rebalanced my gut and my mind. I weaned myself off the medications. During that time, I discovered the 3 Principles Understanding through coach and speaker Michael Neill.
The 3 Principles was taught by Sydney Banks, a Scottish Mystic. This understading made so much sense. I finally started to understand where a rich life really comes from.
After I saw my first spiritual truth, the entire trajectory of my life changed. All it took was a single thought, a realization.
I found my Rich Life
powerful realizations
dropped the fight to improve
Saved my marriage
A rich experience of life
I found my Rich Life
Soon after I started exploring the 3 Principiples Understanding, I had insights from my own wisdom.
I realized I wasn't fighting with life, I only ever fought with myself. I realized our shared enlightened nature. These profound insights have improved my life beyond measure.
No longer working on myself, I am more free to have connected relationships. I learned to let go and am now more present to each moment in my life. I found my rich life.
Now I help others find their Rich Life as a life guide and 3 Principles Apprentice Practictioner.
If you would like to explore your rich life, join me!
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